well, i cannot write in this blog everyday because....i have nothing to say.
So, now that I have things to say (and time to kill), i'm gonna write, again.


random things :
_yesterday that Tomoki guy (someone who walked with me from Ooimachi to Nishiooi at 2am) told me "it's not pink, it's "sakura iro". magenta10. because you put 10% of magenta into white color. or maybe 5...".
something like this.

_yesterday Akira organized some photoshooting session with Sophie Kaoru & me. It was the 1st time for me, and fortunately I got a very big red spot on the face. Wonderful. And he used color films. Brilliant.
But anyway, the pictures were cool actually. Kaoru&Sophie are very photogenic.
And we were at the river. I thought it was really Japanese. The river, some industrial sites around, the collective housings, and the train.
Well, it's not THAT Japanese, but I already saw that kind of scenery somewhere, in some Japanese movies or dramas.
When you're a tourist, I guess this is not the kind of place you would visit. I'm happy to be able to see that side of Japan.

_yesterday I ate agesoba. My father used to eat that all the time. I felt kinda nostalgic & I asked some agesoba.
It wasnt good. It wasnt as good as in France. Well, even in France it's not good. I never liked that dish anyway.
The eggplants yesterday were really the best.

_and yesterday I was able to talk a little bit. I was happy.
Even that stupid Tomoki, he made me feel happy.
"happy" sounds a little bit stupid. ... well, it's not like i'm talking seriously anyway.

_oh damn, i have some films to develop.
...........6pm now ? too late. i'll do it tomorrow.

ok starting from today, new layout.

AANND i'm gonna try to write in this blog only in English.
because it's kinda mendokusai to write in both languages (did i just use a japanese word right now?)
and everybody can understand my easy-to-understand English, right ?

AANND i'm gonna try to write EVERYDAY in this fu*king blog, because....it's very important to take care of someone's blog, don't you think? (himatsubushi himatsubushi himatsubushi)


so, random things :
_i was able to see cherry blossoms. when i was doing that NishiChibaCampusProject, Kamiya-kun, who was researching about the trees of the campus, put pink dots on the plan to represent the sakura trees. i was like "pink ?? isn't it too much pink ?? there are no trees that pink !"
but when i came back to Japan, i understood. there are trees that are that pink.
it's crazy, it's like only flowers, no leaves. only...pink. amazing.

but this was 2weeks ago.
now all the hanabira are gone.

_anyway, for this new semester, i'm gonna concentrate on my research (...!!).

_and i will work on my Japanese lessons. i'm still at that lesson2. "heya ga yogoremasu / heya o yogoshimasu".
...mais laisse tomber comment ça m'soule les jidoushi/tadoushi !!! muzui !

_but i'm very hima so if somebody has anything to do, anywhere to go, please call me...... ;__; ....crying from the bottom of my broken heart....

_when i listen to Nujabes, i feel kinda nostalgic...dunno why.
i guess it's because people from seizusitu used to listen to it many times.



oh oh, i'm starting to depress again...!
ok let's listen to some old school hits...(ohoho my first video on my blog, wonderful...)




...AANND i don't have any more things to say.

j'ai fait la fête hier soir.
oulllalalala jte dis pas la sensation bizarre dans mon ventrinou.
j'étais contente de revoir les gens de chiba. quoi.
hiroki il a passé shimano momoe. il tue.




non j'ai pas vomité.
hier j'ai raboulé anita avec moi. c'était crazy.
ça s'est beaucoup mieux passé que le hanami de la semaine dernière (à savoir fast boissonage+pleurnichage+vomitage+dormage direct de 22h juska 00h30 puis galérance juska 14h...).
j'étais contente de revoir les gens de chiba. quoi.

par contre je flippe. je flippe des sayonara parties. je flippe des aéroports. je flippe des "we will meet again!!" sans réelle certitude.

voilà. j'ai toujours rêvé d'être au japon. jusqu'à maintenant il m'est arrivé des trucs de ouf dans ce pays. des bons trucs, comme des mauvais.
des très bons trucs, comme des très mauvais.
je suis contente, je suis triste. je sais pas, je suis pas au milieu en tout cas.

aaaaaaaaaahhhhh bordel de merde faut que j'fasse mon mémoire...



ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh faut faire l'espèce de version anglaise maintenant...








yesterday night was party@chiba. youhouuu i was happy to see my chiba friends.
but i didnt vomito gerogero.
i brought anita with me. it was crazy.
and thanks to nov araki maotin anita to have taken pictures for me haha i'm so lazy.
it was really much better than the andolabo hanami we had last week (because fast drinking+crying+gerogeroing+sleeping from 10pm to midnight something, & then doing nothing until 2pm..)
but i was happy to see my chiba friends.

but i'm scared. i'm scared of sayonara parties. i'm scared of airports. i'm scared of "we will meet again!!" without really knowing when, or even what we're talking about.
in the plane you always have time to kill. you just sit, & then you try to sleep but the stewardess always comes saying "do you want some drink ? miss, do you want to eat something ? can you give me your garbage please ?" so you cannot concentrate on your sleeping . so...the only thing you do is...thinking...and thinking...and thinking...
and when you try to sleep, you just think...and think...and think...
when you wake up, you think...and think...and think...
you cannot read or watch tv because you think. you cannot eat because you think. you cannot sleep (well) because you think.
at least this is what happened to me.
and what is going to happen to me in september.

i always dreamed of being in japan. until now, so many things happened to me in that country. good things and bad things.
i'm happy, i'm sad. i don't know. but i'm not in the middle.
just for that, just for not being in the middle, i guess i should thank some people.
that satotatsu guy told me i'm gonna be very happy in my 30s. even happier than what i'm living now ? wow incredible !!
but actually i guess everybody knows what i'm living now. at least everybody knows what happened last month. so everybody can imagine that it's not that difficult to have some happier moments in life.

i want to meet satotatsu again. i didn't tell him happy birthday.



& i have to do my f*cking research nyaaaaaaaaaaaaa~
wanna listen to shimano momoeeeee~

faut que j'apprenne à cuisiner, sérieux...
i have to learn how to cook, seriously...

it's weird when i'm translating in English, it's like i'm saying the same thing twice.